Reaping Rewards
Boo Pow! Still here. Still here. I am but goo. But I am still here.
...So remember when I said if you don't hear back from me assume some other misfortune has befallen. I am here to report back that is EXACTLY what has been going on. I am at 4! Deaths this year so far and I am beginning to think either I can kill people with my mind or I have been cursed. Either works. The Old Woman (trademarked) that I lived with for the past 2 years passed away last? week, so goes without saying my life has being kinda chaos. I have been handling it. Sure... May I reiterate again how WEIRD grief is. Me and this abstraction that is GRIEF are becoming GREAT PALS. I have not forget about you my code, I would like to make something beautiful and expressive again but it has been easier to just draw some shit (see my gallery) and go to bed. I have not been reading or doing much of what I typically understand myself to enjoy this year. I do not blame myself or anything it is just how the cards have played out. Suck but we carry on. I do hope next year is finally the year I can start doing things. You know... life related. I saw MCR beginning of the month and almost died from the subway crowded HEAT... but they played Demolition Lovers. Nothing can touch me I saw Demolition Lovers LIVE in 2026, thank god.
We are close to the 2!!!! year birthday of this site and I have not done all that much this year to show for it. But hey! It still exists. I have gotten dangerously close to deleting it a million times but I HAVEN'T... so to that I send a cheers. Thanks for all the continued love, I hope things lighten up around me and I can start being more social online outside fandom. We shall see. Maybe I will force myself to make a webpage next week (sighhgghhg). If I am scared about making and everyone hating (unlikely) then that's between me and me. You know how it is. IDK! Just figuring I should update here, not radio silent on my end yet. They are trying tho... man are they trying. Talk again soon (if not feel free to come up with a outlandish story, you'd probably be at least half right).
<3 Bee