February Fumble
Ok so before I get to the bad news, good news is that I completed the vampire section to my website after like 5 months of tinkering with it. It's not all the impressive but I really tried to learn the proper techniques of coding. More or less. I also focused more on the aesthetic design. I drew and photoshoped a lot of stuff to fit in with the vision. For that I am happy with it. There's still somethings id like to change and there's an entire page I didn't know what to do with but had to have the button for (fungshey baby). Its ok! I did SOMETHING. That is all that matters atm.
Bad news: I am ONCE again struggling with my mental health. ok so maybe not terrible news, or all that surprising news... but the physical toll that crying everyday takes on your body is unnecessary. I am so mentally exhausted all the time. I want to be a functional person!!!!!! WHY why why!! Ugh. Its ok. I just need to complain. I cry a lot, and I do a whole lot of nothing most days. The main thing i am currently fixated on about myself is my creative ability. I will not go too much into it because I WILL start crying but I just wish I was MORE creative and original person. I do not know who I really am. It sucks! At the very least I am on track still for my reading goal this year (4 books a month, ik record breaking). It is the little things!!! Yeah...
Ok that is all. I plan on working on the main page again. Now that its been a few months I want to redesign it to properly function and overall look a bit nicer. We shall see how long that takes me GAH!
Live long and prosper or something like that <3 BEE