Crap Code
Greetings my binary companions (I say talking to a completely empty room). I am here to type a few things out for prosperity for the next hour of my life. Everyone clap!!! (the room is still very empty).
I would like to cover the topic currently eating away my brain right now. My code. Specifically all the code from last year, and the MESS that is my file structure, syntax ETC. I recently had to relearn a bunch of things when it came to making that Watermelon Shrine (because it had been a minute (6 months)) and the tools I used to do that were all infinitely more recent and comprehensive than what I had initially used before. This isn't to say that the out of date resources weren't useful, it is just that I have come to understand that modernity is way simpler (shocker). I think I just did not understand HOW exactly it worked. I understood how I saw it working and applied it. Which looking back is how you're supposed to learn things, but it just makes me (of right now) extremely embarrassed on how everything actually looks and functions. I know not everyone is in my business like that but the idea of someone seeing how MASHED together some of these pages are... oh my god I need to fix it. It's haunting me. I think I have made every beginner mistake in the book. I get why spaghetti is bad now. Me of a year ago trying to get things to work by looking at forum help posts form 15 years ago... disagrees. LOL. I used to partially make a page based on what I wanted to understand. EX. The link page is one big table because I taught myself how html tables work with it. Or like I would pick a "coding exercise" and attempt to incorporate what it was into my page. So the tabs function wildly different from page to page because of this. And I wish I had initially learned semantic html, so that I would have a very simple easy to fix website. Also I never separate my css/js from my html file. 95% of the time its all on one file and its fucking HUGE. The only reason the css/js are separate from the homepage is because I remember it got too big to scroll through (go figures). So then wanting to reuse old scripts is a pain. And why did I never explain anything in the comments???? Why did I switch between Var and Let/Const. Why did I even use it??? CURSE YOU PAST ME. There's so many thing that I am annoyed with myself for... And like ok it does not make a real difference at the end of the day (I AM a firm believer in if it works it works) but it is getting to the point that my newer pages are more consistent AND MORE ME, that I feel the need to rework old pages to match. Maybe this is what personal web development is all about. Growth, change, embarrassment. I just feel like I am gonna get in trouble with Big Indie Web if I don't have proper code. And then this leads me to wanting a completely new website to start over, but I also ENJOY how "for me" my website is. It is like an art project. So maybe... who cares? IDK!
All of this is also coming from having learned GdScript aka Godot. And Godot, or should I say game development (as opposed to web dev) almost DEMANDS clear structure on every level. Like you HAVE to press tab or it is gonna be mad at you. You have to have everything sorted into clear folders and everything in the node trees in a specific order or your shits just not gonna work. So I kinda feel like I have gotten military boot camped into formality. (Cut to my latest web page that has no separate css/js and nothing is sorted into folders). Or at least I would like to practice good proper coding structure and not live my life in (made up) sin and scorn. Maybe I think it is cool how different everyone learns and then applies their learning. I am unsure if I learn like a normal person. I do know I am not a normal person. All of this is just a hobby. Does anything matter? What matters to me is what should matter? What is matter. This is a can of worms.
Other news. I have turned the cursed age of 25. A full quarter lived. Great. I have been barely managing to not have existential crisis about that. So we are just gonna move on, but mark me down for having aged. I don't know. June was so weird. I have eaten an insane amount of gummy worms. Whatever number you think that is, triple it. I am 85% gummy worm. I should make a gummy worm page.
Anyway, I just wanted to get all that out because I have been getting a lot of people in my guestbook claiming I know what I am doing and how they must not. And trust me I have not and still feel like I do not know what I am doing. This thing is only possible with an insane amount of googling and other peoples brains. Anyone can use other peoples brains. It makes me really uncomfortable when people say anything like that to me but I guess it comes with making stuff and being perceived. Gah.
I am going to do the 100 Questions thing today. See it here
Here's to another year of being alive.
<3 Bee