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Hello whomever! Sitting down and typing an update feels like climbing a mountain but I am gonna climb the mountain. I am trying to hold myself to something close to a routine with these bear blog posts... which is fine until you have nothing good to talk about X(
Website: I successfully created the new pages mentioned in my last blog post. The Dress Up Box page was a lot of fun to do. It was a lot of work and I may have flown too close to the sun in terms of creativity. I like how it came out regardless. Future me can fix some of the funkiness with the layering. Someone suggested I make it so that you can switch out what is on top of what... which is a good idea but probably means a rework of all the code... sooooooo FUTURE ME! I am pretty lost atm for what to work on next. The last month of site content was stuff I had been already working on / formulating for sometime. So now I am sitting on a very clean slate... Maybe a button. Or something small. If anyone ends up reading this maybe you could tell me what next to do!
Life... I went outside (yay) and saw Superman a few days ago. It was not very good (sorry not sorry). We had halal food and I got a matcha latte. Did you know that Regal changed their rewards program? Now you can get free Icees and Pretzels AND HOT DOGS with the points!!! My #1 weakness is the overpriced movie Hot Dog. Ok but real talk (beware), I am feeling rather disconnected from everything. Honestly I do not feel very good in my head at all right now. Very detached. Everything seems slowmo (iykwim). I am upset with myself for not coming up with something to work on before this set in... (I think past me was correct in assuming the constant projects were keeping it out). Hopefully it passes soon... It sort of feels like I over did it on the creativity and now I have none. Not burn-out but a secret worse thing. Sucks. I also have been looking at my website, and comparing it to others (which is dumb but I am human) and I just wish mine was better. Not to get depressing, but I think it would be if I wasn't so mentally messed up and slogged down but all this crap. I don't know. I have been eating one giant bowl of soup a day as my nutrients for a week now. Not very fulfilling of a summer (where has the time gone!!) I wish I treated myself kinder. I am insecure about everything and paranoid about everything and sad about everything and- you get the idea. Oh and the lead singer of one of my favorite bands passed away a few days ago (in a motorcycle accident which is how I lost my close friend last year as well), so that has been sitting on top of everything. I have found that getting older is a lot of learning to deal with more and more grief. :/ We persist. Please be safe on the road. Do not ride a motorcycle ever!!!!!!
That is all. Sorry for the depressing mood in here... I am not feeling good. And if you don't see me for awhile you'll have some idea as to why (doubtful as despite everything I am always chronically online). Hope everyone is has an OK rest of their July.
<3 bee